Confession!!! I lived most of my life as a “me–pessimist.” Sadly, I spent too many years believing
- my “glass was half empty and not half full;” and
- it was impossible for me to make “lemonade out of lemons.”
Frankly, I was the half empty glass” as well as the ‘lemons.” The years of verbal, emotional and physical abuse perpetrated by a dysfunctional and alcoholic father created a weak woman. A wounded soul, low self-esteem, and no confidence; I, the “me-pessimist” focused on the negatives and not the positives.
But, mind you, I was overly optimistic when it came to others. If friends or family strayed into the “pessimist mode;” I quickly stepped in hoping to turn their negative thoughts into positive ones. Sadly, I did not feel empowered to do the same for myself.
Over the years, seeking the approval and acceptance of others, I ignored many of my hopes, dreams and desires. The fear of being judged hindered my ability to think like an “optimist.” You see I felt safe and comfortable living life as a “me-pessimist.”
A breast cancer diagnosis in 2008 and a life threatening respiratory illness in 2010 was a life-changer. At last I understood, as one of God’s Creations, I was blessed with the ability to “make choices.”
Now, I choose to live with my “glass half full and not half empty” and to “make lemonade out of lemons.” In other words, I choose to —
- make “every day” a “great day “ and my “best day”
- focus on the positives and reject the negatives